Please grant me strength to push on.

 "I used to be the kid that no one cared about
That's why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out."

 Tinie Tempah - Written in the Stars

If it weren't for the fact I had to learn how to drive (I'd do it in NZ if I could, but the fees can be a pain), I wouldn't even consider returning home. 

At all.

Everything throughout these years has taught me a thing or two. 

It has made me incredibly individualistic, which is...probably a good thing.

But being an individualistic person gets lonely sometimes. And the truth is that the journey to success is incredibly lonely too. You work the hardest, and that shit just kinda kills some part of you inside. The people around you can smile and laugh with you, but they will never really understand. 

It's okay though, I already knew that. 

There isn't much of a choice. The idea of not doing your best just feels worse. It's pathetic. Without your principles, aims and dreams - you do know that life is basically worthless.

Pushing on is tough, but with sheer willpower, it'll work.