In loving memory

It's been a month.

Why did you have to go?

Stars

Ocean

Snow

Summer

We were supposed to see them together

Я люблю тебя, you said

Спокойной ночи, you said

Even if you never may have gone through true love, you were loved

You were loved

I worried for you

I worried for you

I learned up Russian for you

You never minded the language barriers

You never did

You knew your English well

I admired you

I admired you

You were so selfless

so loyal

everything that I couldn't be

But your life was empty

so empty

Putting in everything for the military

Putting in everything for your country

No longer the Soviet Union

But the Russian Federation

You wanted to be so much  more

You wanted to be a Captain

You had that pride

that ambition

that fierce determination

I admired you

Why

Why

Why

Plans will never happen

The future will never happen

You are gone

Who was it

Who killed you

If I ever get my hands on him, I will rip his limbs

make him suffer

for he took away a young man's future

someone dear to me  

I remember the picture

I hold it safe

Do you remember mine?

It was supposed to be the future

You, me, and your dearest sister together

Санкт-Петербург,
Я пойду

  

Kak dyela, dorogoy?

Ya skuchayu po tebe.

You missed me too

You told me so

You loved me too

You told me so

Perhaps nothing could have happened

Maybe nothing would have ever happened

If I had known

If I had known

regret

regret

regret

regret

 

 Take me in your hands

Jump off a cliff

Into the bright blue ocean

Russia's summer

I'd be safe

I'd be in your arms

You missed me

You missed me 

So do I

So do I

Strangled consequences

Inevitable parting

Coldness creeping on

I don't recognize it

I can't recognize it

because this will be the last time this happens 

I liked your uniform

I liked your smile

I liked the casual self you were

Perhaps you were proud

A bit too proud

Perhaps that led you to your downfall

Perhaps that led you to your death

Nothing to be said

Nothing to be heard

Regret kills me inside

I want to see you but

I can't

Why

Why

You were supposed to protect your country

the citizens

the women and the children

you acknowledged that

you knew that

guns

military warfare

strategy

intense training

Even so

Even then

you were supposed to teach me how to use a gun

something I've wanted to do for a long time

for all the right and wrong purposes

but it's gone

you're gone

da svdaniya, komrade, moy brat, moya lyubov

Goodbye once and for all,
dear sweet Nikolai